It was a Saturday night and the plan was to hang out with my friend. This person and I have an interesting history where consistency is not always a strong point on their end. It is something that I battle with in regards to the relationship on a daily basis. It is extremely frustrating for me which I also tend to use as ammunition against myself for settling. The days prior to Saturday I was having a difficult time confirming our plans and for those who know me well I am all about the planning and the setting of plans! It makes me feel safe to know what is going on.
So anyway - I was starting to worry about whether or not this person was actually going to stand me up. I was totally projecting that yes, they would and I was having an imaginary fight with them in my head. I was already seeing myself cut them out of my life. It was insanity! Then the phone rang, I look at the caller id, see their number and immediately the thought 'they're going to cancel on me!' pops into my head. UGH! Especially since the call was about them heading on up to my place. Being that I was completely set up to be angry and self-righteous on the plans that I imagined were going to be canceled I was holding onto a major resentment.
It took me a few minutes while I simmered and beat myself up, but then the thought 'Use your tools, Jen!' popped into my head and I immediately did a round of EFT. First I tapped on the anger that was coming up along with the resentment. I then tapped on forgiving myself for beating myself up for jumping to a space of fear. Then feeling relief from the EFT. I also did a few round of Afformations. Which helped to me to reframe the expectations that I had for the night ahead.
By the time the person arrived at my house I was feeling a 2 on a scale of 1 - 10 on the anger/resentment scale when I had been at an 8 or 9. As the night continued it dropped even further and I was able to have a completely enjoyable evening simply enjoying this person's company. I didn't think about how amazing this fact was until just now. I went from a space of complete anger and resentment along with doing some serious self beating to being able to enjoy this person's company while not once thinking any of the thoughts I had earlier in the day. I also completely let myself off the hook. I was even able to relax into just being me with my guards down. That in itself is a complete miracle. I was in the flow and just enjoying the space and time I shared with my friend. I am constantly being amazed at how well this energy stuff works, which only makes me want to keep up my practices :). Good stuff!!
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