I think the hardest concept for me to wrap my head around and to fully believe; is that the only person in charge of my life is me. I am the biggest obstacle that I must overcome. My beliefs that I am not powerful enough or that I don't have what it takes to produce the results that I want in my life get in the way of me taking action. Fear can be such a paralyzing emotion, for me what comes up is "So how am I going to screw up my life this time??". The truth is that at this point I really have no where left to go but up.
I am starting on a new career venture and to be honest, although really excited, I am also really afraid. My past pattern has been to go all gung-ho and then to deflate as the reality of the challenge comes up. I don't want to do that anymore! I don't know if you watch the biggest loser but that's what I feel I need. Boot camp for those who stop when they hit their own personal wall.
Maybe I should decide to do something that pushes myself physically. Though I need to find someone to commit to work with me and hold me accountable. Otherwise I know that I won't be accountable to myself. UGH! That is it in a nutshell - how do I be accountable to myself? How do I make the decision to do it and then actually do it? It's that key word that Tony Robbins always talks about - Discipline. Discipline = Freedom, not bondage. I need to work on clearing the belief that I have that Bondage = Discipline. Love that awareness that keeps coming up.
I know that I can do this..I know that I have what I need to live a truly successful life and to be happy beyond my wildest dreams. Now I just need to continue to work on following through. I am worth my commitment to myself. I am deserving of that.
Why was it that I found it easy for myself to lay out a plan and then stick to it?
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